Elon Musk makes no bones about it: He’s had the worst year of his career — “insanely painful” — and a lot of it is his own fault.
“This year felt like five years of aging, frankly,” he said in an interview with Kara Swisher on a new episode of the Recode Decode podcast. “In fact, my brother said: ‘Look, if you do a self-inflicted wound, can you at least not twist the knife afterwards?’ You stabbed yourself in the leg. You don’t really need to twist it in your leg. Why do that?”
Musk, who is the CEO of both Tesla and SpaceX, has been working 100- to 120-hour weeks and taking Ambien to help him fall asleep. But he pledged that he’s turned a corner after a year of production and financial troubles at Tesla, multiplying probes into his conduct and companies, and ill-fated tweets (often sent late at night) that spurred lawsuits and questions about his judgment.
“I tweet interesting things pretty much as they come to me, and probably with not much of a filter,” he said. “I spend a lot less time on Twitter than people probably think. It’s like maybe 10-15 minutes or something.”
“It feels like dipping into the flow of consciousness of society. That’s what it feels like. It’s kinda weird,” Musk added. “Some people use their hair to express themselves; I use Twitter.”
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Musk said he’s dropped his workweek to about 80 to 90 hours — “pretty manageable” — and feels he has recovered, but he still displayed a somewhat thin skin when talking about his critics in the media.
The Tesla CEO routinely fights publicly with reporters on — you guessed it — Twitter. At one point in the interview, he called some Wall Street Journal reporters “terrible people,” and said that some in the media are more akin to “ad salesmen.”
“The amount of untruthful stuff that is written is unbelievable,” he said.
Asked if that rhetoric was responsible given the aggressive rhetoric from the White House and amid escalating violence against reporters as recently as just last week, Musk would only say, “[I] suggest the press take it to heart and do better.”
By the end of the interview, Musk was reflective, saying he did regret some of the fights he picked with reporters.
“I’m sorry,” he offered, “to some journalists.”
This article originally appeared on Recode.net.