You love knowledge, study, and insight. You value the gifts of your mind, which you use to great advantage to penetrate the mysteries of life. You study things in-depth. You search beneath the surface of things. You abhor shallow judgments or opinions.

I do love to study and run after any kind of learning that I may be able to stumble upon.  I watch people, situations, even nature and learn what I can.  I've been known to follow unknown paths just for the sake of learning. ( *Not suggested without careful consideration unless you want to risk it all ).   

You have a natural gift for analysis and research. Once you have grasped the facts of a subject, your creativity and abstract approach lifts your thinking beyond the rudimentary to the philosophical. You have a theoretical mind, but rather than indulge in fantasies or idle thought, you prefer to base your theories upon scientific facts.

Ok... When I  was younger I would be one to jump at the fact that I am a creative person and most definitely an abstract thinker.  I wouldn't be so quick to admit it now, because I am tending to believe I've wasted years of creativity by perusing my 'knowledge'. Can creativity be wasted?  And what is creativity without talent?  I wouldn't consider myself talented in any area besides maybe looking at life and dissecting it bit by bit.

You enjoy mental and physical puzzles -- figuring them out, taking them apart, and putting them back together.

Yep, I do. 

Some people may perceive you as cool or aloof. You are somewhat introverted; you may feel slightly removed and even a little different. The fantasy of the hermit or monk engaged in a life of study and meditation appeals to you.

Hmmm, cool and aloof?  No one has came to me about that.  I've heard selfish, ditsy, psycho but never cool and aloof.  I don't feel like I relate well with people and that does affect me on a deep level.  I question what I have to offer people, and because I know that I am more than likely to be misunderstood would rather keep my distance for the sake of all.  So yeah, I can day dream about being a monk or hermit.  It's probably why I like Henry David Thoreau.  I could spend a day watching ants with little problem.  

In relationships, you tend to keep things business-like and impersonal. You prefer to talk about the facts of a given situation, rather than the cloudier issues of emotions and personal feelings. You distrust feelings -- both your own and those of others. The whole emotional realm strikes you as unreliable, and a bit unnecessary.

Again pretty guilty, even my relationship with my daughter is more like a apprenticeship for life than a 'nurturing parent'.  If I can't explain my emotions so I understand them how is anyone else going to understand them.  (Are emotions supposed to be understood?)  I'm not sure, but this definitely affects people's thoughts about me. I suppose it could be  that I don't give people enough credit to attempt to understand- that could cause people to consider me selfish I suppose.  "She thinks she's better than us, so she won't bother us with her life".  That isn't what I believe, but I can see how others may assume that. 

Your inability to fully understand the emotional aspect of life is your Achilles heel. You are so rational that the unpredictability of the heart frightens and surprises you.

....*shrugs*. 

Your challenge is to trust. You need to share your heart with someone. This is a courageous step for you, but will result in enormous growth and satisfaction.

It's a courageous step.   One thing that I have learned, in order to grow and learn from people is to put yourself around people.  It's hard since in the past even my family hasn't understood me and putting myself among people means feeling more like an outcast.  (I Know that I am not the only person on earth that feels this way, but I don't know how to handle or deal with the emotional implications in that)

The advice here is to make a true connection with another human being. Without it, you may marry out of convenience or to fulfill social expectations, but it will not lead you out of loneliness. The more removed you are from people, the more you risk isolation, bitterness, and a cynical attitude toward life.

Ha ha, I did.  My first marriage was definitely out of convenience AND to fulfill social expectations. There were emotions involved but there was no connection.  That is probably why I'm so cautious now with my latest relationship too.   After my divorce, when I got pregnant a lot of people assumed I would get married- but I refuse to marry out of convenience or social obligations again.  I can't stand feeling lonely IN a relationship, it is better to be alone and be lonely, at least in my mind.  

This choice represents a true crossroads in your development. By sharing yourself with others (without compromising your independence and need for privacy) you can cultivate your enormous charm and share your understanding of life. You are a natural teacher and advisor. And the wealth of knowledge you will accumulate in life is meant to be shared with others.

Exactly.  I do wish that I could develop friendships more easily, knowledge is pointless if you can't share it.  Locally I have no friends that I can share with besides my daughter's father. (You'll be better acquainted with him below and may understand some of my struggles emotionally).  I get no phone calls from anyone who wants to socialize.  The only phone calls that I get are from family who want to talk about 'the kids'. The true tragedy in my life is that I have few people to share my life with and I have very little time to myself.  I lack that privacy that I require to search within myself because I have to take care of the family and the house- then I'm on a constant hunt to learn but I can't absorb anything anymore. My job and my family leave me emotionally drained where if I had the time to share my creativity I wouldn't have the energy, to share it without feeling rushed. Even this blog is written amongst diaper changes, breaking up fights, naps, feedings, and cleaning the house. I can't focus on any 1 thing for any amount of time to make it intelligible.  I can barely focus on my needs I feel so scattered. 

This is not to say that you must compromise on your need for privacy or time spent alone to contemplate life. These are natural aspects of your personality, which are essential to your growth. These characteristics should not be threatening to your spouse, but must be understood as fundamental to your being.

Hmmm.... 'compromise'.  I've had to make compromises to maintain my family.  Unfortunately, lately those compromises are tearing my mind apart.  Don't compromise who you are and what you need. YOU CAN NOT take care of anyone if you can't take care of yourself.  I know this, but yet I find myself in the same predicament time and time again.  Children don't understand "mommy needs time alone" and my boyfriend doesn't understand the need to analyze anything. I'm very torn.  

You are blessed with a great reserve of intuition, which can be cultivated by regular meditation and contemplation. Your "inner voice" is your greatest guide and friend.

And I miss my greatest guide and friend.  

You are idealistic and have high expectations for yourself. Learn to balance your serious nature with regular doses of fun.

I am idealistic.  I have very specific views and opinions on how a house, family and job should run.  The problem?  The problem is that I am the only one in my life who agrees with these views and makes them happen.  Which leaves me without any time to myself for contemplation and healing. (Yep I do this to me.) I have a hard time having 'fun' when I have unfinished things on my to do list.  I know that a balance needs to be made but I feel I'm not going to get ahead if I don't tackle the things I need to do- but I'm only getting older and more tired.  I am desperate to find a balance and embrace the life that I've been blessed with.  It's dizzying to me.  

Your intelligence and cultivation make you charming and distinguished in appearance. As you get older and more comfortable with your identity, people are naturally attracted to you. They see your wisdom, your deep understanding of life, and the refinement you radiate.

Ok, I'm not sure if distinguished in appearance is a good thing.  That was definitely not one of the dreams of my younger self. What is charming????  It would be nice if people were naturally attracted to me, would make things a bit easier, but it would be hard to balance cultivating new relationships to be honest. I would need to find a balance so that I could share myself with others. 

Ok, I may make a few comments below but for the most part I'm going to let you make your own interpretations on my boyfriend. I'll write more about the relationship when we get there.

You like to live a stable, well organized life. You dislike sudden changes. You prefer orderliness in all things. You have a systematic mind that is reflected in everything you do. You can establish and maintain a routine. You are exacting with details and quite thorough.

You like to carefully analyze a problem and then tackle it in a logical and practical approach. You want to be dependable, a rock of strength and an example of discipline for others.

Work is central to your life, but you may have a tendency to overdo it; you can easily become a workaholic if you're not careful. You have a great deal of energy and can accomplish a lot.

You want a family and you are a good parent. You may carry the discipline and the need for orderliness too far, especially in your family, making children and spouse feel oppressed and limited. Flexibility is your key to harmony and balance in life. For you, structure is more important than freedom, which you tend to interpret as chaos. But others do not have your need for well defined systems, in fact, they may feel deeply inhibited and uncomfortable with it. The peace you get from orderliness may represent a prison to someone else.

You need and want much love, but you are not very demonstrative. You can be a little rigid and stubborn.

You are honest and unpretentious. You detest liars and affectations.

You can be very determined and tenacious. You are the bedrock of any enterprise. You have the courage to go into the nitty gritty of a problem and come up with a solution. Try not to lose sight of the larger picture and dream while you plumb the depths of the bottom line.

So that is who he is and what I see in him.  

Your combination is almost made in heaven. The “almost” can’t be left out because there are some sharp angles to be rounded off. This relationship is founded more on intellectual and spiritual levels than on the sensual, physical plane. He is practical and grounded, goal-oriented - He is a doer. He can take ideas, quickly eliminate what won’t work or is unrealistic, and then make the realistic ideas materialize. He is of the earth. Sarah, on the other hand, is full of ideas and spiritual search, philosophical and a bit of a dreamer. So, earth and heaven make up this combination, and, just like earth and heaven, you can’t exist without each other. Although this is only one aspect of the chart, its influence will help you overcome many of the obstacles and challenges inherit in every relationship.

This combination is often found among relationships that started at a very early age - something that can be explained by the fact that both numbers are drawn to each other because what they have to offer is exactly what they need from each other. He experiences Sarah’s more abstract and philosophical outlook on life as offering freedom and space for his solid, dependable, but somewhat too structured, restricting views. At the same time, he offers Sarah a stable, secure port in an internal universe that is often chaotic and highly unstable. As a number seven, Sarah knows the dangers that lurk in the dark corners of the subconscious when the mind wonders too far into the realms of dreams and abstract fears. While he offers a safe haven to Sarah, helping her find peace and comfort, Sarah, in return, brings freedom to his spiritual and mental experiences. Supported by this mutual complementation, this four and seven combination can bring about childhood romances that will last for a lifetime.

This relationship began when about 5 years ago, under not so good circumstances.  I was going thru my divorce, and dealing with the loss of a perspective friend (loss in my mind- I was told to move on).  That is what I did- and I got pregnant.  I didn't find out until the relationship was falling apart and we got back together for the sake of our daughter.  It wasn't until she was about 2 that our relationship began to bloom again.  The first several years were miserable for us both and we butted heads without trying.  Now, we're trying to work together and not against one another. So yes this relationship didn't start out as a convenience, but turned into one, and then it's now out of desire to make things work..

The sharp angles I mentioned earlier are found on the more mundane, physical plane. This is where you both may have to compromise if you want your relationship to develop. While he requires order and respectability, Sarah is more comfortable with a bit of chaos, in which she can pose as an observer, an unconventional observer, not per se seeking the approval of others. 

This is where things are really difficult at times.  I went out of my way to learn how to maintain the house the way that it needs to be done, I began that bit of research in my first marriage.  He wants neat organized straight line little room for creativity. I like a clean house too, but anyone who has children knows that it isn't realistic to maintain that 100% of the time.  I try.  I watch two nephews and my niece on top of caring for my daughter and host play dates with my 3 year old cousin occasionally.  I spend my waking hours taking care of children, cleaning, cooking and working to make tomorrow closer to the family goals. I'm not putting him down or whining- I just haven't found that necessary balance that I desperately need.   

If you are successful in compromising on the material plane, your relationship will be very satisfying and you will get as close to the proverbial “soul mates” as any two people can get. 

There you have it, it took me 12 cups of coffee but it's done.  That is who I am- if you need more information I'm a cancer.  I pretty much fit that profile perfect.  I'll save that for another day, if anyone is interested in dissecting my mind.