Anniversaries and Grief � Dreams, Visions and Reality

Complications by Dying

Usually we experience living as one of the most complicated things that faces every human being. Sitting in Church and listening to the sermon some time ago at a memorial service, the church minister said ''If we die, we complicate the lives of those around us'' At first, I thought by myself that...

Three Issues

Pretty sure I just ate bad seafood .. I'm waiting to die. Despite that, I'm watching Fast Food Nation and for the first time in probably a month I'm craving fast food. All things combined, I should certainly be feeling the opposite way. And my hearing might be going. Again.

Racing time

My MIL was over yesterday and she got an unexplained pain in her foot. They ended up going to emergency. It is gout. It is very odd. No, she doesn't drink. I mean, to watch someone get older and watch their body start to give out on them is actually extremely sad and reminds us of our own mortality....

Not only 'NO!' but 'H3LL NO!!'

She's in prison for her part in the brutal rape and murder of her 3 y/o daughter. Now she has terminal cancer and wants to be let out of prison to die. Uhm. No. She sentenced her baby girl to a terrible violent painful death by doing nothing to protect her, she stood by while this monster beat,...

The Year of Magical Thinking

It's rare that a book moves me, gives me goosebumps. But this one sure did. If I were make a list of writers whose careers I would want, Joan Didion would definitely be at the top. Her collection of essays, Slouching Towards Bethlehem, is a compendium of 60s thought and personalities, clashes and...

Dying, Again

Uggggggggggh, all day yesterday I had an annoying cough. When I got home, I laid down on the bed for a while, and watched the rest of Robin Williams on Broadway that Tanya had brought me. Around 6, I got a text from NG1 saying he was soooooooo sorry and he wouldn't be able to hang out and that...

RobbbieDobbbie Treasure of the Week: The Mauby Lady Who Needs Her Feet (A Strange and Sad Tale)

This little wooden lady has been in our family ever since I can remember. I don't know who brought her home from Barbados (where Mom's family is from) or when, but I do remember hearing about Mauby Ladies from the time I was a little kid. My grandfather would tease my grandmother about having a very...

RIP Ling-Ling

Heart failure at 20 years old - rest in peace angel.

last words of dying saints, kings, famous and scoundrels

Reading an interestin' book by Jonathon Green, the famous last words. The words that were said are philosophical, meaningful and outright hilarious. I desire to go to hell and not to heaven. In the former place i shall enjoy the company of popes, kings and princes, while in the latter are only...

I'm Dying!

So, I might die in a few days... At least that's how I feel right now. I have a head ache that won't go away ( not even after three ibuprofen over an hour ago), I'm more tired than usual, my gut has just been messing with me for the last day and a half, and I've got this weird thing going on with my...

My mind says go and my body says no!

I'm still stuck @ home and dying, I wanna do so much stuff but every time I try to do anything like putting my dishes away or walking up the stairs it requires a 4 hour nap : ( I even have to type laying down cuz it hurts to sit up after 20 minutes!!! I've never watched so much TV in my life. I'm...

6 in 6?

I hate to be all depressing again, but my uncle's in ICU right now. He's my dad's eldest brother. Doctors say he may go tonight or tomorrow morning. He will be #6 within 6 months. :( On a brighter note, hanging out at the hospital for so many people's last few days made me realize how much I should...

Moth... Audioslave

I love this song... It's... perfect... You can make that out just from the opening itself... Moth... by Audioslave. Thought I was different, it seems I'm just the same As again I put my hand over the flame... Explains everythin you ever felt but couldn't put in words... Every single time, you think...

Not happening

I'm at work, I'm trying, I really am but its just not going to happen the longer i sit here the more my head hurts its pounding literally. i can feel it throbbing.. good thing though, my nose was draining some icky green boogers...so that means there is/was an infection and its trying to go away...

Death at the Door

I was visiting my mother last week for Resurrection Day. We had a very good visit and were able to talk over some things that had been on her mind. Mom is 64 and quite ill. She has heart problems and respiratory problems and a degenerative spinal problem, and she smokes.... while using oxygen! I've...

Relief?

Not so much. I took 2 percoset's about 4 hours ago, I'm still in the same amount of pain I was in at that time. WTF is going on. I'm calling the dentist in the morning, I really think he should have given me some anti-biotics, I don't think I would be in this much pain if there wasn't an infection...

Dying, swollen. :(

It's 7:30 and I just got outta bed for this first time since 11:30 this morning.. I was able to eat some soup earlier and I slept with a heating pad on my cheek for the duration of the day This is not what I pictured doing on my friday night, luckily my roommate left the pain killers out for me....

Randy Pausch is Dying

Not being a fan of Oprah (I like Letterman and never believed their rapprochement), I would never have seen this one. But a friend sent this to me and I thought it very worthy of sharing. Oprah's version, however, was abbreviated, so I have included the full, original lecture. It's over 70 minutes...

Monday, Monday

I got to talk to my grandmother today. She says she really isn't doing well. I hope that she falls into a coma before it gets painful for her. I don't want her to suffer. We made plans for me to call her on Thursday, but she said goodbye to me in the event that she doesn't make it that long. Of...